Beating With Happiness...

Not really feeling too sleepy tonight, although the snoring boy next to me couldn't agree. I love knowing that he's dreaming about me, too :) I know this for a fact tonight because he just rolled over, and in his sleepy-voice that he has when he's sleep-talking, he says "Hannah I can see your underwear in this picture." I can't help but just smile.

I caught myself just staring at him for a while tonight, thinking about how lucky I am to have him. Our relationship isn't perfect all of the time, but it comes pretty damn close. I truly don't think I could ever find someone who treats me better. This trip seeing him has been one of the best yet. We went out with friends last night and I haven't had more fun than that in a long time. I am so comfortable around him. Comfortable enough that I know, no matter what, he'll always think that I'm beautiful. He makes me feel so great about myself. All the constant reminders he gives me are incredible. He just has a way of making me feel like nothing I can describe.

Love is a funny thing. Sometimes it's easy to get so caught up in being "comfortable" with each other that you lose sight of the little things. But this trip has been different. It's been like we just began dating. All of the butterflies came back. I love it :)

As I lay here, listening to him breathe really heavy (my poor boy has a sore throat tonight), thoughts and images of fun times keep running through my head. I think of some my favorite past times, as well as day dream about the future. He just fills my heart with happiness.

And my goodness...the boy is beautiful. Even beautiful when he sleeps :)

Love is an amazing thing!

Cheers to 21 Years...

I'm 21! Legal and free to do what I want.
It feels so great!!
I had an amazing birthday, and it's being followed by what should be an amazing trip :)

Las Vegas here I come :)
I cannot wait!

The nightlife will be great, but I'm even more excited for this:

OH YES.
I get to see my all-time favorite musician in concert while I'm there.
GARTH FREAKIN BROOKS!

#1 on my bucket list.....check!

Touches my Heart...

Posted on PostSecret's Site This Week...

Isn't it amazing how much these furry little guys can make such a difference in our lives?!
I don't think I could ever live without a dog in my life.
My pups mean so much to me. I am in love with them :)

Bouncin' Off The Walls...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IH1Z9DEDqpk

I have loved this video the moment I saw it.
It could be because I am slightly obsessed with dancing, and I'm a complete dork most of the time.
But I love the free spirits of the people in the video :)
That looks like true love to me :)
I just get happy when I see this. It makes me really excited to have a house with my man someday :)

Plus, the fact that Josh Turner is sexy as can be doesn't hurt the situation ;)

Goodbye Manor...

Wow. I worked my last day at my work today!
There are certainly some faces I won't miss seeing, but so many more that I will.

I made a difference. Sounds corny, but I did. One woman (a resident) had a tear fall when she heard it was my last day. How sweet is that?
It was hard to say goodbye, but so great to walk out. Being a CNA is hard work, and I'd be lying if I said taking a few weeks off won't be nice. However, each and every person I helped became like a grandparent to me in a sense. They became my friends. Some shared personal stories with me, others hugs and kisses (only on the head, of course). But each and every one of them will be missed, and I hope that the remaining aids will care for them in a way I did.

Being a CNA is tough. There are so many entertaining, disgusting, hilarious, and emotionally exhausting elements to it. There have been so many deaths in the past couple months, that I think it will be good to clear my head for a while. But how many people can say they got to hold hands, hug, and pray with each person before they passed? I got that opportunity, and those people knew they weren't alone.

I met some great friends through the facility as well. I met some nurses that inspired me, and some that treated and cared for me as if I was one of their own kids. And I made a couple friends of which I have every intention of keeping in contact with.

But I'm home now. Back in my hometown, with my family and friends I love most. If being a CNA teaches you anything, it's the value of love and relationships. It teaches you to value what time you have with those that you love, because it can be over before you know it. And no matter what, I always need to be thankful for my health and happiness, because it doesn't stick around forever. It also teaches ya to be thankful that you know how to wipe your own butt while ya can ;) Trust me - it's a blessing! haha



I must admit - smile's only get more beautiful with age. There is something about an elderly person's smile that is unlike any other. It genuinely warms my heart.

I feel at ease while I'm lying here in bed now. I'm so happy to know that I'm done. Other than a few finals next week, I have no major responsibilities at the moment. I haven't been able to say that in a looooong time!

Life just keeps getting better :)
I've got amazing friends that I plan to keep forever, an incredible family that I love dearly, and a boyfriend that means the world to me!

Til Death Do Us Part?

One of my best friends is getting married, so I can't help but think of weddings lately. I told her how excited I am to get married to Dan someday, and she responded with lots of excitement as well. I got to see her in her wedding dress a few days ago, and she looked beautiful. Trying on my bridesmaid dress, seeing her with her gown and vail on...I just couldn't be any happier for her.

Then last night approached and I ended up scrap-booking with another close friend. In my free time, I've been scrap-booking pictures of Dan and I for our house that we will have together someday. Then she and I got on the topic of weddings. Her and her boyfriend haven't been together nearly as long as Dan and I, but are very in love and are talking about engagement. Love is a crazy little thing isn't it? Anywho, she showed me some dresses that she liked and so on.

When I got home last night, weddings were all I could think about. Not necessarily hoping to get married asap, just excited for when the day does come. I decided to kill some time by looking at dresses online. Two words: Maggie Sottero. My goodness...walking down the aisle in any of her dresses would be a dream come true. They are so unbelievably perfect :)

As if wedding stuff wasn't on my mind enough as it is, I got a text from an old friend saying, "I just had a dream that I was at the cutest wedding ever, and it was yours and Dan's!"

As I was throwing the ball for the dogs this morning, I couldn't help but day dream about my wedding someday. Funny thing is...all I could think about was Dan. I wasn't picturing what my dress would look like, where it'd be, what colors I'd have....All I was picturing was the handsome face of the man that I love smiling back at me. Also, I couldn't help but visioning coming home to our house, and knowing that I get to stay with him there for as long as I'd like. How exciting is that?! Knowing that someday we will devote our entire lives to each other is a feeling like no other. Probably sounds crazy for me to talk this openly about it, but I'm in love. I am so in love that I want the world to know. I'm not embarrassed by it, or anything of that such. I know millions of women would kill to have a guy like him. He's sweet, selfless, caring, sexy, athletic, determined, motivated, romantic, and driven to get what he wants out of life. He tells me every single day that he cannot wait to marry me. I truly am a lucky girl :)

So...wedding bells in the near future? Who knows. Maybe it's just a strange series of coincidences, or maybe it's a sign that our future together is just around the corner. Either way, I am in love. And I will settle with that :)

A New Beginning...

Although the song itself really has nothing to do with my life, I cannot stop singing "Home" by Chris Daughtry. "Well I'm going home, back to the place where I belong" are the lyrics I keeps singing over and over - every time with a smile on my face!

I finally got all of my stuff moved out today. Today was an easy one cause all we had left to move was the bed and TV, so it wasn't too bad. I might be a bit wrong to say it wasn't bad since my parents already had the bed in the truck by the time I got there, and out of it by the time I got home (thanks guys!). But anyways, I vacuumed that room for the last time, ever! My goodness I wish I could explain how good it felt.

The room that I will not be missing!
Nor will I miss that moldy smell.
Or the constant earthquakes that the basketball causes every time it hits my window!

Anywho, now I'm home and gotta get my act together and organize! It's weird though, because I can't wait to begin! I'm in this "get er done" kind of mood. Can't wait to start fresh.

So happy to be back to good 'ol Silver Oak :) Adios Jackson!

Finding Joy in New Places :)

Just got a text from my mom saying that I have to move some of my furniture out tomorrow morning (due to Oregon rain next week).

Moving has never been so enjoyable in my life. I get excited thinking about moving anything out of here.

Thank you, rainy city!
Happiness and excitement are overcoming me :)
CAN'T WAIT!

I'm Counting Down The Days...

I move back to Eugene in 6 days, but who's keeping track?! Oh I wish I could explain how excited I am. The feeling I get just thinking about actually having some money in my pocket, friends down the road, and family close by is unlike anything I've felt in a long time. Perhaps that's due to my lack of feeling much of anything lately - but still great nonetheless. It's about time I can get out of that apartment and into the city that I love. "The World's Greatest City of the Art's and Outdoors" is the town's motto, and that about hits in right on the head. The bike trails, rivers, buttes, Birkenstocks, tree-huggers....oh I miss it all so much. I never appreciated it's true beauty until I left, but I love it now more than ever (possibly due to the little grains of hippiness my mom unconsciously installs in me).

One of my favorite places in Eugene
"Alton Baker Park"
It has brought me many memories as well as scars!

Another 6 days after that, 12 from today, is my twenty first birthday! Being 21 entails so many things for me. Having my best friends be my 25-year old sister and my 21-year old boyfriend makes it even more exciting. This means I am no longer forbidden from doing anything (well other than renting a car, but who cares about that anyways!?) I have been busy enough to restrain from counting down the days which means it's coming quicker than I thought! I have never been happier to be a St. Patrick's Day baby until this year. Should be interesting!

"Home is a place you grow up wanting to leave, but grow older wanting to get back to."

I'm Coming Home :)